Phantom Nights “Night Five”

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I was sitting on my desk that night, my face was not looking good. You were looking at me from a distance, putting your chin on the top of your arm on the table and just staring with no words. Your look on that night never left my memory. Few seconds later, you asked me, “What’s wrong with you?” I looked at you and smiled a sad smile, saying, “Nothing.” Then I turned my face to close the conversation with you. But you did not. “You’re not okay!” You said. I turned my face back again at you without saying a word. “It’s clear.” You continued. Then I smiled saying, “There’s nothing, really, thank you for asking.” You didn’t insist, but you just spent your time sitting, looking at me.

Then one day, I wasn’t around. You started looking for me. You were the only one who realized my disappearance. On that day, I really needed to stay alone, crying for hours. Then the back door came to your mind; where you used to sit alone, and I used to come and annoy you, just to have a conversation with you. You came slowly and saw me sitting on the chair hiding my face and crying. You came and asked me, “Why are you crying?” I kept crying and ignored you. Then you asked again, “Are you crying because of me? Huh? Just answer me.” I raised my face, looking at you with no words. Your look was so decent. You leaned your head and said, “Are you crying because of me?” “I’m crying because of everyone in here, everything.” You posed for a second, then approached and said, “Is it me? I would never forgive myself if I made a girl cry because of me.” I didn’t answer you, and continued crying. You stayed for a second and left.

I wasn’t expecting you to leave. I looked behind, you actually left. I cried more. Few minutes later, you came to me with an orange juice glass, and put it next to me and said, “I made it for you to change your mood. I know you like it, when I make it for you.” I looked at the glass and smiled so deep inside, but I didn’t show it to you. The glass was so nice, yes I used to not only love it, I used to adore it. I still remember that thin piece of orange on the edge of the glass. You made it with love. It wasn’t just an orange juice glass. It was a meaningful gift filled with love and warmness. Then I looked at you with my teary eyes. You were smiling at me.

I didn’t say a word to you. It seemed to you like I said, thank you for feeling me. And you looked, smiling at me like, you’re welcome, then you left. I looked behind you when you left; in my entire life you were the first person who understood me, who felt me without even saying a word, who never insisted when I never wanted to talk. Deep inside me there was something saying, no, please don’t go, I want you to stay by my side. Just sit on the chair next to me. Just look at me, smile to me, you don’t have to talk, because you were the only person who used to talk to me using the silent language. But I couldn’t say it out loud, and if I went through this moment again, I won’t say it also.

Maybe it was good like this, without saying anything, without showing anything, without explaining anything, and without telling anything. It calmly, quietly, ended without even starting.


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Good night

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